http://ca.youtube.com/watch?v=wbLkdXNLk2o
Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol
Grace can be found in the elegance and beauty of form, manner, motion or action. This means it can be found in each and everyone one of us. Some of us are by genetics more graceful than others but somewhere a form of grace hides in all of us. The problem is finding it and believing in its presence. Perhaps it is easier having someone to remind us of it through theirs. On the other hand perhaps it easier to forget everything we have been told before we are too old to see life bursting out of a garden.
I was freezing this morning when I woke up. The overnight temperature of 4 is a little too low for this early in October. The weather has been a constant rain and overcast for the past couple of days. I remember going to work in the rain, coming home in the rain, going to work in the rain and coming home again in the rain. Working midnights there is no separation of one day from another, they all seem like one continuous day. This is until the weekend arrives and your body becomes vaguely confused. You are in bed in the afternoon for a few hours, falling asleep when you should be working and waking when you should be sleeping.
At work in the bathroom, there is a single stall and a single urinal. The urinal has a manual flush and it seems 50% of the time people fail to use this simple device. It is disgusting, I don't want to see or smell another person's urine. But inevitably I do because as I previously wrote, a certain percentage of the people are disgusting. Though this doesn't surprise me.
The following passages are from one of the books I am reading called The Piano Man's Daughter by Timothy Findley.
"We don't choose our lives, Liam believed, our lives choose us, and we must hold the choices of others at bay, lest our lives lose sight of us. That was his definition of single-mindedness, not of choosing, but of being chosen."
"If you can be reconciled to the flesh you are given and the days unfolding with their unique demands of you, then you can have a life as full as anyone's, no matter where or who you are."
Fireflies In The Garden by Robert Frost
Here come real stars to fill the upper skies,
And here on earth come emulating flies,
That though they never equal stars in size,
(And they were never really stars at heart)
Achieve at times a very star-like start.
Only, of course, they can't sustain the part.
The Robert Frost poem above is the inspiration and title of a pretty good movie I watched between the hours of 1 and 3 this morning, see what I mean about my body's confusion. The movie has a great cast led by Willem Dafoe and Ryan Reynolds, with Julia Roberts providing her usual stabilizing force in a minor role. The story is of a family, everything that is beneath the surface struggling to stay there or be freed in the light. The movie moves rather gracefully through the past and present, shaping the future leading up to a tragic event. There is more information and probably a better description of the movie below.
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0961108/
Enjoy the first Saturday of October and its dying gardens.
jr.
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